Back and forth I go with the blogging thing, I'm back for now, who knows how long I'll stay this time? Life gets in the way I guess. Shahid, Imaan, and I have moved to a new apartment in a new town. I like it here a lot better. It's a dead end street, nicer then our previous block where people would speed up and down all day, nerve wracking if you have a twenty month old who is apt to try and dash into the street at any given moment. The neighbors are nice and quiet too, at the old place I would often hear the people across the street and next door cursing each other. I like the landlords too, they mind their business and since we mind ours theres no drama whatsoever. There is a small park a few blocks away I can easily walk to so Imaan can play and really run around.
I do feel bored and lonely sometimes. I've been a stay at home Mom since February and while I know I am incredibly lucky to be able to do this right now, I feel like I have no life of my own anymore. Shahid and I share a car right now and since he works he usually has it. There are no close shops to walk to, so I feel isolated a lot of the time. I know this will change soon because we are planning to buy a second car before the end of the summer. I'll be so happy because its tough to be home bound. I stay up late at night because it's the only time I have to myself. I think a lot of Mom's must live like this. All day you take care of your kids, your husband comes home and you take care of him, then when they are both sleeping you have time to yourself. I sit up and read, watch a show I recorded on my dvr, or surf the net. I'm dying to have a day where I can get a pedicure, go to the salon, buy new clothes, get new glasses and contacts. Imaan broke my glasses in half so I had to mend them with crazy glue because I ran out of disposable contacts.
Yeah, I'm kinda looking like a hot mess these days. Well it can't last, I'm sure things will improve, I just have to keep my head up.
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